Chapter Twelve
Burdened Again
The ordeal had almost proven too much
for Bilbo to bear. He had had to be helped from the room and almost
carried to his quarters by Merry and Pippin. They put him to bed in his
own rooms and he had fallen asleep almost instantly, exhausted and spent
but at last eased of heartache. Pippin returned to Frodo’s room, but
Merry stayed with his cousin for a long while to insure the old hobbit
would be all right after the stressful night. Sam, Pippin, Gandalf and
Strider changed the bed, removing the bloodstained linens and cleaned
Frodo. Though his master was still spent and unmoving, Sam could feel his
heart beating strongly as he held him and he knew Frodo would be all
right.
It was long past midnight when Pippin, curling up on
the bed beside his cousin, fell into an exhausted sleep. Strider gently
lifted him and carried him to his room, but Sam could not be persuaded to
leave his master even now. He sat close, holding Frodo’s hand and laying
his weary head on the bed beside him. Gandalf, unsleeping and watchful
stayed also, a tireless guard on the precious pair. Frodo’s left hand was
still chill, but the aching cold had left it and the comfort that
knowledge gave Sam could not be measured. At some point during the long
night, Sam did fall asleep where he sat, but the sound of booted feet
coming up behind woke him again with a start. He blinked, stupidly,
forcing himself to wakefulness and reassured himself that Frodo was still
sleeping before looking to see Gandalf standing behind him.
“He’s really going to live now, isn’t he Mr.
Gandalf?” he asked, still bleary.
Gandalf smiled and the joy and pride in his face
warmed Sam. “Yes, he will, my friend. Elrond has saved him at great cost
and peril, though I daresay Frodo himself had much to do with his own
healing.”
“I weren’t none too sure about that Elrond. He kept
talking like it didn’t much matter if my master died. It was like he
didn’t even care! But I guess he did after all.” Sam looked again at
Frodo’s peacefully sleeping face and smiled.
“You should not judge him too harshly,
Samwise.
Master Elrond has lived many ages of this world and has seen much you
cannot even imagine. To him, the life of a mortal is like the bright
flash of a dragonfly wing sparkling in the sun; beautiful, but compared to
his long life, fleeting. If he were to love such temporal things as
strongly as his kind are able, his heart would have been broken long ago.
If he seems cold, it is only a protection, a shield against those he could
grow to love only to lose far too soon.”
Sam blinked again and shook his head. “I never
thought of it that way, sir,” he said.
Gandalf laughed softly and his eyes twinkled with
merriment. “I understand that feeling all to well myself, Samwise. You
hobbits underestimate your own power to get under one’s skin, so to
speak. You have charms that even the mighty cannot withstand, if they
bother to get to know you.” He grinned broadly. “Quite a dangerous lot
you are!”
Sam caught himself yawning. “Dangerous? Not
hardly!” he scoffed.
Gandalf glanced over at the bedside table his eyes
fixed on the rune-covered box that still rested there. “Yes, and
formidable. I cannot think of a people who could have done what Bilbo had
Frodo have for the past 77 years, but that heinous job is not quite
finished. There is one thing left for Frodo to do.”
“And what’s that, Mr. Gandalf?” said Sam sleepily.
“He must bear the ring again.”
Sam stiffened, waking more fully as the implications
of Gandalf’s words sunk into his tired brain. “Oh, Mr. Gandalf…” he
pleaded. “After all he’s been through for that accursed thing, can’t he
be given a bit of rest? Doesn’t he deserve it?”
Gandalf picked up the box and took it, closed, to
Sam. “He must continue to bear it for a little while longer,
Samwise,
though I hope it will not be for long. Now that he is healed, we need to
return it to him.”
Sam eyed the old wizard with great hesitation.
“Aw,
no, Mr. Gandalf, sir.…” he said. “Wouldn’t this be the time to find
another more worthy person to take the thing?”
“More worthy?” Gandalf looked shocked.
“I can
think of no one more worthy than Frodo Baggins, my friend. But if you
mean deserving of this burden, I would say that no one on earth deserves
it – but it must be borne and by someone who will be least harmed by it.
Frodo has been tempered by pain and blood and is a weapon whose mettle has
not yet been tested against the enemy. I think he will withstand the evil
power of the ring far better than any can foresee.” He opened the box.
The ring lay in the bottom, glittering palely in the candlelight. A new
chain of fair silver had been strung through it.
Sam looked up sorrowfully. “Must I?”
Gandalf nodded and Sam, very reluctantly, reached in
for the chain. It was light and strong and slipped easily through Sam’s
fingers. He lifted it up and let it dangle for just a moment as if
weighing it. Gandalf nodded to him again and Sam slowly undid the clasp.
Being careful not to touch it, he laid the thing on his master’s breast
and reached gently under his neck to redo the clasp. When it was done, he
gave Frodo’s gown a tug and the ring slipped beneath it, hidden from
sight. He sat back; not feeling at all comfortable about what he had just
done, and sighed.
“That was powerful hard, Mr. Gandalf, sir, but I
suppose its best for the time being. I just hope you’re right and these
great folk’ll find someone ‘deserving’ to take it on for him. He don’t
deserve all this trouble.”
Gandalf smiled and closed the box. “One’s fate is
rarely deserved, in the truest sense of the word, but none can avoid their
own. We must all do our parts, no matter how small or insignificant they
seem. The fate of the world may someday depend on the acts of the least
of us.” He put the box down and gave Sam a comforting clap on the back.
“Your part is neither small nor insignificant, Samwise, and I believe much
of it is yet to come. You will do well.”
The
End
The Fellowship of the Ring: Book 2,
‘Many Meetings’
Frodo woke and found himself
lying in bed. At first he thought that he had slept late, after a long
unpleasant dream that still hovered on the edge of memory. Or perhaps he
had been ill? But the ceiling looked strange; it was flat, and had dark
beams richly carved. He lay a while longer looking at patches of sunlight
on the wall, and listening to the sound of a waterfall.